Sometimes I still can’t believe that I had brain cancer. My last surgery was 5 years ago today. The upside about hard times is that we learn how strong we are, who is there for us, what’s important in life, what isn’t, & most importantly, how great & how faithful God is.
While I’m still far from perfect, I’m grateful for the change, maturity & growth I’ve experienced over the years. I’m no longer constantly self-conscious. No longer burdened by the constant feelings of guilt, fear, & depression I had from the thoughts of cancer returning. No longer constantly worried that I’m about to die. And I’m always realizing that God’s love is greater than my shame.
I’m thankful for everyone (esp. my hubs β€οΈ) who has been in my corner along the way. Every now & then I’m a mess & still struggle with the actuality of my tumor having a Β±5 year prognosis. But I’m grateful to be an outlier. My tumor was misdiagnosed in 9th grade (17 years ago!), but I’m still alive, healthy & tumor-free.
Everyday that I’m afforded is my own little miracle, and I’m so grateful for how gracious the Lord has been. Even the small things that may seem insignificant (like seeing deer on the side of the road lol) remind me how beautiful life is. I never want to take for granted that I didn’t have to be here. Thank You, Lord, that even when life gets super nuts, I can look back to this sweet reminder of Your love for me, and remember how You kept me. ππ½ #grateful
“I will say of the Lord , He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in Him will I trust.” -Psalms 91:2 KJV
01.10.2018
